Another day, another sickening Bill Cosby update. This time, the 10-year-old deposition the AP reported that the embattled TV icon confessed to purchasing Quaaludes to give to women for sex, has also been obtained by the New York Times and there are more startling findings about the comedian’s alleged rape of women.

The deposition from a lawsuit filed by former Temple University employee, Andrea Constand, Cosby describes in great detail not only his relationship with Constand, but his dealings with past women and how he’d give them Quaaludes.

What’s even more shocking was his demeanor and how he believes he’s still a good person. Here’s the top 8 most disgusting and devastating findings from the entire Cosby confession!

1. Believes he’s a good reader of women and sex.

“I think I’m a pretty decent reader of people and their emotions in these romantic sexual things, whatever you want to call them,” he said in the deposition.

2. Made light of the entire lawsuit.

Cosby’s mannerisms as he spoke of his encounters with women came across as indifferent and occasionally charming, according to reports. Constand’s lawyer, Dolores M. Troiani told him, “I think you’re making light of a very serious situation.” Cosby replied, “That may very well be.”

3. He sexually lured women with mentorship.

Cosby’s relationship with Constand began as a mentorship, even though Cosby said in the deposition he was attracted to her and would invite Constand to his home for dinners.

He became upset when she didn’t take his advice and call someone who could help with her interest in sports broadcasting. Cosby describes his and Constand’s sexual relationship saying they were “playing sex, we’re playing, petting, we’re playing.”

After he drugged Constand with what he says was only Benadryl, Constand told her mother, and out of fear they would publicly embarrass him, Cosby offered to help pay to further her education.

4. He didn’t want women to fall in love with him. 

Cosby said at times, he didn’t want to have sexual activity with women because he feared they’d fall in love. The Times reports, “To him, he said, the act of sexual intercourse “is something that I feel the woman will succumb to more of a romance and more of a feeling, not love, but it’s deeper than a playful situation.”

5. Played on women’s emotions for sex.

Cosby admitted to asking Beth Ferrier, a model he met in the 1980s, about her career and father, who had died of cancer, only because he wanted to have sex with her.

6. Practiced strict discretion with his ongoing affairs.

Cosby still sees himself as someone who is trustworthy and chivalrous because he does not tell others about the women he’s had sex with. “I am a man, the only way you will ever hear about who I had sex with is from the person I had it with,” he said.

7. Used his extreme wealth and celebrity status to block his consensual and non-consensual affairs from going public.

He blocked a magazine article about his affairs and paid off a woman through his agent so his “wife wouldn’t find out.”

8. Had Access to Quaaludes since the 1970s

Cosby obtained seven prescriptions for Quaaludes over two to three years, initially for a sore back, but he eventually used them for women. He compared giving Quaaludes to women to “the same as a person would have a drink,” except it was without their consent.

Brittney Fennell

Brittney Fennell

Brittney is the Associate Editor of Jawbreaker and a writer who has goals to disrupt culture in ways unseen.